Tuesday, 17 October 2017

Summer painting

I do not paint much those days, hardly at all. I focus my energy on being and sharing almost every moment with Elliot. But I do miss sometimes painting.

to close the summer completely. I enclose my summer painting.


Bye Bye summer

Summer has gone. It has been a while since last time I wrote something. I gave myself time and space to not rush too much. Sometimes I wonder is it still worth writing and then I happen to read somebody's else blog like Lisa's and her words help me to get through dark moments and I realize that maybe sometimes something here on 'My true North' might have the same impact. I hope at least...

It has been a good summer. Good memories will be kept in our hearts forever. Memories of the garden, time in the parks, seaside, first steps and lots of other many firsts...





Friday, 11 August 2017

Flowing

Adapt to the change and let go. Keep flowing

Gratitude list:
my body
yoga
walks in the woods
Every moment with Elliot
Love, Love, Love
Food




Wednesday, 26 July 2017

Lessons from toddler

How such a small body can hold and give so much love every day, every minute?

When toddler falls, he gets up and he does not give up. He takes the fall naturally. Standing up and carrying on are natural consequences of events. Toddler is always ready to begin his day with open mind and joy. It is amazing how much we can learn from little ones.
If you are mum and have doubts and fears that your life will never get back to normal after havivng a baby I can assure you that it will eventually. Life will be normal again and you will get back time for yourself, maybe not so that much than you had it before but maybe you will appreciate it more. It is like life with new updates in your software :)
If you are not a mum I recommend to have children present in your life not necessary yours and watch and learn from them. They are great teachers.



Friday, 14 July 2017

July

It has been mild summer so far but beautiful as well. Do you feel sometimes so delightful about the whole life that you cannot even embrace this delight? There is so much beauty in this world, so much love around, so much creation. Summer with my son. We spend days playing in the garden, picking raspberries and pea pods, wandering at the river and going to the seaside. He is a great companion and teacher. He taught me to stay in the present, to be always open to spontaneous joy, that everything is the matter of choice and nothing stays the same forever.





Elliot's art. First murals.

Thursday, 13 July 2017

Wanders

Summer wanders in the woodland. From land to the land to the Peace and light.





Sunday, 18 June 2017

Summer

Gratitude list:

summer
walks in the woods
Elliot, Elliot, Elliot
yoga
Beth, Lisa, Sarah and Carin
time with my parents
tractor parade

Summer time...finally I feel connected and settled where we are. I took me a long time to find my way here (Scottish highlands). I learned though quite few mistakes. I do not try to fit anymore people and places where I do not belong with my heart. I understood that the best way to be happy is to follow my own pace and my heart.
 I have got the feeling that maybe, maybe I will start painting again. One breath at the time...
wishing you all beautiful summer





Tuesday, 30 May 2017

12

It is time of the year when there is so much daylight, when there is so much blossom and greenness everywhere. Time of warmth. Beautiful time to be born. Elliot is 1 now. 12 months have passed.





12 months of endlessly growing love, joy and....exhaustion. 12 months of learning new life, finding balance between holding and letting go, following my intuition. 12 months of bedtime stories, singing, laughter and being together. Sharing every moment together, staying in the present. He is my teacher of mindfulness.12 months of many first: words (mama and tata which stands for daddy in Polish), strawberries, paintings and drawings, discoveries of the world around him, joy and laughter and first solo steps on his birthday. 365 days of saying 'I love you' and 'goodnight'. 365 days of gratitude for him, for this gift of life.
Thank you Elliot.

Thursday, 18 May 2017

Family adventures

Elliot and I went to Edinburgh few weeks ago. It was a beautiful, little journey which we made together. Traveling with a child as a companion creates a special bond between parent and child, creates a special and unique memories. Every day is a journey and I am delighted to create memories with my son, together.

We had time full of play at playparks, museum and  Summerhall. We played, we laughed, celebrated spring in full blossom our first one, with many to come,  together...










Tuesday, 25 April 2017

Juno

I have so many thoughts which I would love to share. They come and go during the day when I am with Elliot. They all spread out somewhere in the corners of my memory at the end of the day. In the result of that the best will be to post gratitude list (the thought came during breastfeeding, the best time to unwind).
Gratitude list. April:

soda bread-my first ever,
garden,
bonfires, fossils and 'Autumn' by Ali Smith,
'20th century women' movie,
every single day and moment spent with Elliot,
grumpy days because then I appreciate happy ones,
being published in 'Juno' magazine
public library in Inverness






Monday, 3 April 2017

Wednesday, 22 March 2017

10 months

Elliot is 10 months now. 10 months of new life, new journey. My heart is full of happiness and gratitude. However there are days when I feel being exhausted would never stop. These months taught me to trust my instincts and follow my heart. It has been a lesson of new self and old self, of loneliness (living rural) and going beyond. It has been time of experiencing love every day.

Last painting I did during pregnancy. I have been sketching Elliot's portraits since he was born. They are my prints of love, tiredness (always sketching in the evenings), gratitude, fear of being not perfect. They are my prints of motherhood. They are my gifts for Elliot.