Friday, 1 March 2013

In the meantime

It has been a while since I wrote, painted and felt strong and ready enough to carry on with myself. There are moments in time and our lives when everything seems to be fine. When we think that things go well. Then suddenly and rapidly life or circumstances change our reality. I had a crash in my personal life. I drifted away from myself and world around me and I needed time to put myself up together. I lost myself for a while. I felt hurt, completely powerless and empty. I am trying to rise myself up now, pick up all broken pieces of me and start again. Maybe life is about constantly starting again? I went home to see my parents last week. I experienced there few magical moments. First of all I experienced snow. I was making snow angel. When I laid down on the fresh snow and felt snowflakes peacefully falling down on my face I could not feel more happier, blessed and peaceful at that moment.

Also I had a dream at home about sky full of shining stars and that was a beautiful dream. I spoke to the lady who survived the second world war and I was completely impressed how strong and brave woman she is. She told me a love story about her and her husband. They spent together 48 years! She said to me that she could not find a better man. He passed away few years ago but she is still in love with him.
My parents are strong and beautiful souls too. They have not had easy life but they are so devoted to each other after after 37 years of being together. I am so proud of them.
So here I am back to Edinburgh again. It is Friday morning and I can feel spring in the air. Spring of hope. I feel not quite rested but ready to move on and start again.
I did few sketches when I was in Poland. I sketched my parents from now and then. It is amazing how much they have changed. How life shaped itself on their bodies and faces. During my sketching I also noticed how much I look like them.
To my parents with the deepest love and gratitude.



  1. It's good that you are ready to move on and start again. We all need a break every now and then. It's just good to remember in those moments that things will get better, eventually. Love the sketches you did!

  2. Beautiful sketches. Sorry you had a bad time, but glad you have managed to pick yourself up and start again - stay strong! Hugs, Valerie

  3. Wonderful tribute to your parents with your beautifully done illustrations and wishing for you whatever you wish for yourself ~ 'answers all lie within yourself' ~ Be well ~ ^_^ Happy PPF

  4. A beautiful tribute. Lovely rich portraits.
    Sending you positive thoughts, too. :)
    Happy PPF!!
    Mixed-Media Map Art

  5. What a nice post, I love the stories you said, about the lady and about your parents. You have a very strong style, that is wonderful! I like it a lot.
    Thanks for participating in the 29 faces challenge!

  6. Wonderful sketches and a super tribute to your loving parents.

  7. such a touching post AGA. I hope you continue to find your happy and your light.Love you in the snow making your angel-you exude happiness in these photos. Nice sketches too with a loving tribute to your parents.Happy PPF!

  8. Sometimes when things are a bit off balance in our lives, a return to home to be amoungst our tribe is the best medicine. It sounds like you found that to be true. Your sketches are really lovely. You have a wonderful talent for making the character come through in your drawings. Lovley work.

  9. Lovely pictures in the snow. The portraits are also beautiful. I hope you rediscover the path of his life with much happiness. Greetings.

  10. You are so lucky to still have your parents :) these are lovely sketches of them

  11. a wonderful post and I wish that you can go with fresh power into the spring!
    wonderful portraits of your parents!

    wish the best to you!

    from Austria

  12. Beautifully written. I think all of use lose ourselves every once in a while. Teaching us how to gather ourselves up again.

    You live in Edinburgh? I visited there last year, and it was amazing! I loved it! Even though I was only there for a mere 8 hours. Haha. layover.

    Awesome portraits! Super cool that you have older photos of them to look at to draw as well!

    Best of luck to you!

  13. Yay for snow angels! I always find snow so peaceful and calming. Your drawings of your parents are gorgeous! All the best to you!

  14. What a beautiful post, Aga! I have been struck again and again lately how changeable life is and how uncertain, how fragile. Makes each and every moment that much more important.

    I am glad that you were able to experience some beautiful moments back in Poland with your parents. What wonderful photos of you making snow angels and I love the image of your star-filled dream.

    Your portraits and your tribute to your parents are lovely.

    Sending huge hugs your way and hopes for a Joy-filled, magical spring for you!

  15. What a beautiful post, dear Aga. I can feel your love and hope throughout. Big hugs to you and hope your week is going well. <3

  16. wonderful sketches...full of personality!