Saturday, 10 March 2018

My toddler

My son as a toddler. Beautiful personality comes into the bloom. Every day brings more understanding and more words, lots of words. It is a time of new challenges and discoveries. I am learning through love, I am learning by loving my son to be better person for myself and others too. Every day brings more understanding for me as well, how to love, how to give space and comfort, how to stay calm, patient and compassionate. 

Friday, 16 February 2018

Me now

Spring is coming. I can feel it in the air in spite of today's snowfall. Snowdrops are popping out from the ground and unfortunately found first tick too.
Spring is coming. It is like another new beginning,  another fresh start. Winter gave me time. It was time to rediscover myself as a person, gave me time to find the place in myself where I am now and not to be scared to look there but to enter it with joy and acceptance. Being a mother is still processing in me. It is like a puzzle which pieces finally start to come together one by one, slowly creating a whole picture. This picture is me. Being a mother is like living on different planet (thank you Lisa for describing it so well). Planet which I have never lived before. It takes time to understand it, to get through it without resentments of not having time, of loosing yourself for a little while at the beginning.It takes time to feel good in mothers skin.  and Yes mothers gain so much, they gain so much love that there are no words to describe it. I have been reading, following some blogs, came back to yoga and painting a little too. Painting is different now, there is no rush, no aim, just creating, giving myself time to do a little at the time.
Today I was looking at my son, still little toddler. I was thinking that one day he will become a man, a grown up man. It is so good to see him so happy every day, curious, adventurous and always in the present moment. I was thinking what my parents must have thought about me at this age. Did they see it too? That joy of being here and now, that endless love, being grateful for this little, big person in our lives and did they wonder too about me as a little girl who one day would have become a woman and mother?
It is true that we are created to love.

Monday, 22 January 2018

Winter diaries

It has been peaceful, snowy, cold and playful winter so far. Beautiful time to grow, being inspired, expand imagination. Beautiful time to keep warm and slow down, just let the days be.

Wednesday, 17 January 2018

Hello 'noom'

To find the right words
To describe all the feelings to share
Let's start from the present
Gratitude list:
swimming with Elliot
playing in the snow
watching my son

I have always been fascinated and inspired by moon. I am happy to see Elliot inspired by moon too. So glad to share moon moments with him

Thursday, 9 November 2017


Dear Autumn, thank you for:
harvest, leaves, leaves, leaves and decay
sunsets after 4pm, moon or 'noom' as Elliot says
time with Elliot, open fire
smell of autumn air, guidance
breastfeeding women, wise mothers
hopes and inspirations

Friday, 3 November 2017


Time of being reconnected with family. Time of reconnection of my roots. Home. It always will be home to me. Elliot's first time in Poland. First time on the plane. First concers. Second Autumn.

Autumn diaries

Autumn is here...and we love it. Everything slows down.